of how fast time is passing by. I know this post is rather depressing after how cheerful I sounded in the last post, but I just got tired of how people always leave after I spent so much time getting to know them and became friends with them. It's not like we end on negative terms or anything, but I've realized that no matter how much you want to, other people are not going to stop their lives for you.
At the end of the 7-day travel tour my mom and I took, I really felt like I connected with a lot of people. I was very happy. Nowadays friends are very hard to come by, but no matter how I didn't want to, the 7 days past in a flash, and it was time to say goodbye. I'm not very good with goodbyes, because I know that even though the technology is really advanced and everything, and that people always say they are going to stay in touch, eventually they get along with their lives, and our special little bonds get lost in time. I know that some people will say that "out with the old, in with the new", but from my past experiences, I've come to learn that as you age, it gets more difficult to meet genuine people. Advance technology is a double-edged sword: it can help people stay in touch over time, yet it makes life so fast-paced that people forget about the ones they used to hang out with.
I know I'm sounding very melancholy at the moment, but I just realized that I'm about to turn 21 (in November), yet, other than my boyfriend, I haven't found a true best friend. All my best friends are periodical(?), like elementary, highschool, college...I've never had a best friend that transcends through time. I guess, for tonight, even with my boyfriend holding me, I'm still lonely. I'm still longing for genuine friendship. I think I'm very greedy, I want more than just my mom and boyfriend as my friends. I'm so tired of people leaving, I'm so tired to all the back-stabbing, I'm so tired of loneliness, and last but not least, I'm so damn tired of sitting here helplessly as time goes by, not able to do anything.
On a happier note, here are some pics of my FOTD (I did a tut on this too, it's on youtube).
My fun back-2-school look:
What I used:
--EDM fairly light Original Glow w/ Cinema Secret moisture spray
--Coverblend concealer in light
--MAC bronzer in refined golden
--MAC Emote to contour
--Tony & Tina blush in self healing
--Mehron paradise palette in pastel (light brown as a base)
--Amuse professional palette in peachy champagne, shimmery white, and antiqued bronze, and a bright blue as a bottom liner.
--L'oreal HIP cream liner in brown
--Maybellin full & soft mascara
--Urban Decay Lip palette in Wallflower
Here are more pics from the trip:
At the arches:
At Coors factory:
With the bus driver and the (cute) tour guide:
Passed out at the hotel:
I love this pic, I think it's artsy-fartsy:
I love you all. Please remember that no matter how insignificant or terrible a day seems, there is always someone that's hoping to make your day a little better. Pay attention to the people around you, you might notice some people who are trying their best to be friends with you. Please give them a moment of your time, and trust me, it's going to make YOU feel a million times better.