Hi guys! Long time no see! How are you all doing?
Today I want to start a tag, and it's about the things that make you imperfect. I, for one, always believe that beauty lies within the imperfections. Imperfections make us human; imperfections make us fun; and most importantly, imperfections make us unique. I don't know if this tag has been done before, so....yea. I don't want to set rules or anything, since most people don't want to follow that anyway, :P. So, if you want to do one, please feel free to do so. However, please don't feel like you are obligated to do the tag (I know sometimes I feel guilty when I get tagged but don't do the tag).
Here are my imperfections:
1. I get jealous...like destroy-everything-I-touch jealous. I'm a true Scorpio, I DO NOT tolerate any type of activities that even resemble infidelity/betrayal. This is not just about BF/GF, this is among friends too. I DO NOT do well when my friends become more friendly to other people.
ex: A, B, and I are all friends with each other. B and I have always been closer than B is with A. However, recently B got increasing closer with A. This is when I get very jealous and feel that I've been betrayed. I cannot be friends with either of them, so I lose two friends.
I know this is very destructive and overreacting, but I am kinda OCD about emotions. Everything has to be pure. I know, I'm very weird.
2. I am messy. My room looks like it's been hit with a hurricane/tornado/tsunami/earthquake at the same time. I've always admired those people who are very organized and clean (I call them overachievers/perfectionists).
3. I am anti-social. I hate hanging out with people. I think this has something to do with my previous experiences. I've been back stabbed and lied to so many times by so called "friends" and I no longer trust humanity as a whole. This also explains why I take an extreme liking for animals. They can't hurt you, can they?
4. I curse like a sailor. This is probably due to my limited angry vocab, so I'm trying to make up for that by checking out Urban Dictionary regularly.
5. I am very very impatient and have a very short fuse. I get angry/frustrated very easily. When I get mad I get MAD, like throwing stuff and screaming. Props to my BF for putting up with me for over 4 years.
6. I have hurt myself in many ways. When I was younger, I was very depressed (still depressed fairly frequently). I have tried various ways of self harm. I've been a cutter, bulimic, anorexic, and I've taken enough sleeping pills to knock out an elephant. Yes, I knew that they were bad for me, but I did them anyways. I just felt very lonely and very very angry. I'm angry at the world. Everytime I watch the news I get more frustrated and vulnerable due to my inability to do anything. I am doing better after I met my BF though. He taught me to be ok with the world. I still have a lot of hidden anger and frustration though.
7. I get the most intense road rage EVER! Seriously, you DO NOT want to be on the road with me. I speed and I honk...a lot. LOL!
Since I haven't seen you guys in a while, I thought it might be fun to post a lamo neutral FOTD. I used the CS 28 neutral palette...yes, I know I've gained a bunch of weight...Damn Thanksgiving!
What I used:
--Rimmel Renew & Lift foundation
--BN concealer in Mellow yellow and mellow orange
--CS contour/blush palette
--La Femme Peach sparkle as blush
--Senna Glisten Rose to highlight
--L'oreal HIP paint in secretive as a base
--CS 28 neutral palette
--Stila smudgepot in black
--Jordana color x-tend liner in black out on the lower lashline
--L'oreal HIP jellybalm in succulent
Well, that pretty much summed up everything for me. Thanks for reading! PLMK if you have any questions or concerns.