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Monday, March 30, 2009

It is really funny.....

how much numbers dictate our lives.

This morning when I woke up, I weighed myself: 145lbs. I was so happy I danced to Miley Cirus (DON'T JUDGE ME!). 20 minutes later, after I drank my morning bottle of water (I reuse my water bottles so I don't waste), when I was about to head out the door, I weighed myself again just to feel the pure joy: 148lbs!!

I felt like crying and the whole day went on poopy.

I know it was just water weight, and that I'm being ridiculous, but I can't help to wonder how much simple numbers affect people.

People (generally) want to be under size 6, under 120 lbs, and they want to make more than $500,000 a year. However, are they really that happy when they get all those? If you ask them, will the people who are size 2, 110 lbs, and make a shit load of money really be happier than you? Why is it that the dial of my scale affect my (and a lot of other people's) mood so much?

Why do the size tags at the back of clothes make us so miserable (most of times, unless they get smaller)? Why is it that the numbers matter so much? Why is it that an A is more important than the knowledge we retain? Why is it that Harvard means you will be better than the rest of people? Why aren't us happy with just being healthy? Why is it that we have to get to that certain numbers in order to feel the satisfaction? Most importantly, why are our lives being judged based on these numbers?

You could be the nicest person ever, but if you've got less than perfect grades/income/friends and higher than average weight/sizes/debt, the society still sees you as a failure... Why?

Human beings are complicated....and I'm confused.

20 comments:

izumi said...

i totally feel you :\ i weighed myself (at the very end of the day, after lots of eating) and almost died! 150.2! ALWAYS want to be 10 or 15 lbs less (goal: 135). when i weigh less, i get super happy.. when i weigh more, i just feel blah.

people just like to compete and be better than each other.. it's just.. nature i guess. competition. it's just away to normalize everyone to be judged from there.. a status quo i guess. i think it's freakin' whack. people are great the way they are but it's hard to get over it when EVERYONE thinks it and EVERYONE says it.

if you find a better answer.. lemme know! i'm still curious about this too :\

fuzkittie said...

Aw cheer up Tao! Sigh our society...

fuzkittie said...

I agree with Izumi though, it sort of has to do with survival of the fittest.

Askmewhats said...

that's true, people always see the "bad" or "worst" in you, they will judge you easily to make themselves feel better.

Keep up the great work on the fitness program :)

GiGi said...

We all have our moments, but at least let's be happy with ourselves most of the time. When I'm feeling the stomach role, I put on a loose pair of jeans & cute top. I make myself happy, have to. I'm so tired of being down!

Leslie Yang said...

i totally understand where you are coming from and what you are saying. when i was 125lbs, i wanted to be 115lbs. the more you have, the more you want.

it's easier for us to want more than to want the things that we have already.

oh and btw, just weigh yourself in the morning after you pee. that's the least amount of water that will be in you all day and i usally count that as my weight! :) and if i ever go to check ups, i don't eat until after i get weighed. ..lol

Anna said...

yea unfortunately this is the way life works... i am convinced that there are two kinds of people - those who will work hard, give it their best, and not care about the outcome, and those who constantly measure themselves against other people. on average i feel like the second type will do better than the first in terms of things they can put on their resume, but they will never be as happy...

echoli said...

Aww... Don't feel sad. I'm 130lb, and I always wanted to be 120 lb. I've tried to eat less and exercise, but my weight always bounces back. Everyone's body is built differently. Some have heavier bone structure, and some have denser muscles. It's just so wrong to judge somebody based merely on the appearance and some numbers. There are times when I'm really stressed, and I lose a lot of weight all of a sudden, which in contrary worries me. I'd rather lose weight when I'm healthy and happy, not because of stress or other people's judgment. Cheer up and stay beautiful! =)

grAndeHuGkiS said...

i am also confused with this number or letter game ~
anyway...cheer up~~

VanityTreasure said...

Yes, I can't agree more with this post of yours! Life is full of contradictions...

But as long as one is willing to find his/her own way of living, he/she will find the "answer" and "happiness" :)

Also, that's what makes life worth living (experiencing)!

Just my 2-cents worth of thinking. By the way, I hope your eyes have recovered! :)


xoxo

ndoodles said...

I hate it when society sets the rules for us. There's this one kid who goes for the same things I do - school, job, grades... and he always end up getting what I want and I'm always left rejected. It's like - some people just don't have to work for things and then there's people like me who's gotta work hard and then sometimes that doesn't even translate.

mascara whore said...

face value, thats all =)
numbers is the easiest way people can be judged on
like you said, income/weight/grades etc
its just how it is

but that means nothing if you dont care about it

alienman said...

o.O you're in the 140s? you look gooooood. i'm around the same weight as you and i look nothing as good as you. If you can be that hot at whatever weight you are, then 143 or 148, it's certainly nothing but an insignificant number.

Jamilla Camel said...

Survival of the fittest happens on many fronts, and the key factor you point to is FINANCIAL! Good looks that conform to what is COMMERCIALLY attractive gives people and advantage in earning power, etc. There are many beautiful people who are not conventionlly attractive in a commercially useful sort of way, but that does not mean that they are not beautiful, e.g. you can be gorgeous but too short to be a model.

In the end, beauty fades, and it is BRAINS that give you the financial edge. That, and a sense of purpose and achievement, which may not come from your physical appearance all your life, at all times.

So, keep it all in perspective, and look at your weight loss the way a doctor or scientist would--e.g. it's temporary water weight and it will go away!

NaTGN said...

Honestly Tao.. it's all in the mind. I mean.. as much as I would like to say.. "oh who cares what other think" I know that it would not help. I know that first hand ;) It was the same for me, happy when I lost weight, sad when I gained weight, I mean who isn't? I can't tell you or myself to forget about the weight issue because you're beautiful inside (which you are of course).. but what I'm saying is to change your course of mindset on the whole issue at hand.
Take it one step at a time. Don't discourage yourself every time you see that you gained instead of lost. It takes a lot of time and patience.
I gotta tell you.. the thing that got me off my whole weight issue thing is my bf. Seriously.. like he would constantly tell me that he loves the way I am. And I mean constantly. And with his sweet words I was able to get over it and realize that it wasn't only "societal values" that made me think that way.. but it was because I accepted and internalized these "values" and as a result made myself unhappy and judgmental whenever I looked at myself in the mirror. It is only you and how you look at yourself can you better the chances of reaching your goals and feeling better about yourself.
I remember reading once that women in their 30s, 40s, 50s look back on their younger years and were pondering at why they were so critical of themselves (because they WERE actually beautiful) it was only their mindset that was holding them back from seeing it. Don't let your youth waste away Tao. If you don't accept yourself now.. you won't be able to fully relish in your youthful years =)

Olive said...

If you weigh yourself first thing in the morning it will definitely flucuate throughout the day sweetie. Don't fell bad about that!

As for number dicatating our lives that's dead on. However, a lot of people just plain suck and like to judge others and look down upon them. So the key is to not let them dicatate what you do in your life!

Jo said...

lol i like this post. very logical and true. arrghh you're making me think too much (it hurts)

kitanablade3 said...

Very true, numbers really dictate our lives, we live by them, eat by them, dress by them. We're all number addicted. You're very right though, I don't think anyone in this world can be 100% happy with themselves because we always want what someone else has. We must try our best though! Don't get down on yourself about the weight Tao! I wouldn't have even guessed near 140, SERIOUSLY!

How are your eyes? Gosh I remember when MAC paint pots broke me out!! That was horrible! So itchy & burning at the same time!

cheryl said...

u're absolutely right about these questions. sometimes i guess our pursuits just make us unhappy. i know lots of people who are happy-go-lucky and dun seem to care a lot about anything. i'm always unhappy with myself in one way or another. i'd love to be able to free myself of that!

angie519 said...

Societal acceptance is unfortunately so important.. But remember that everyone has a different opinion of success and beauty. I think you're beautiful!

Even though I'm 115 lbs, I have a gut.. Oh well.. hehe

Work on one thing at a time, and have reasonable expectations. Don't try to change 5 things about yourself at once!