some MAJOR wieners!!
I'm so sick of group projects. I'm sick of working with difficult people who think they are the shit. I'm sick of being the one that comes up with ideas only to be taken advantage of. I'm sick of 60 page papers, finals, and preparation for graduation. This should be the time to celebrate and relax, NOT a time to be stressing out.
In my opinion, it's natural to graduate from college. However, apparently in the US graduation is a BIG deal. My BF's got like 20 something ppl coming to his graduation....I've got two. Not like I'm complaining or anything, but I HATE dealing with other people. I don't want to pretend to be all nice and polite in front of his major douche baggy biological dad, who didn't pay a cent for child support and rent the ENTIRE time he's in college, but all of a sudden, "my son's graduating!". He drives an Infinity and his wife drives a BMW, yet they are some of the most selfish ppl I know. What a load of shit!! For those of you who didn't know, my BF's biological dad didn't want him to date me b/c I'm Asian....FUCK THAT SHIT!
I'm just so sick of pleasing everything. I have to arrange everything. My mom's really shy and she stresses out easily in social gatherings. So, it's up to me to work out the parental dynamics. My mom's too timid, and my bf's mom is way too intense. I just want to enjoy the last month of my undergrad, why is it so difficult?
My mom's trying to plan all these tours during summer. She wants to go to NY, CA, and Alaska, and she keeps asking me about my schedule. I DON'T FUCKING KNOW HOW MY SCHEDULE WILL BE!!! I'm so tired of always keeping a happy face when in my heart I want to scream my head off. I want to go somewhere so no one can find me, contact me, and make me want to kill myself. I usually do well under pressure, but this is pushing my limit.
I'm at a wierd low right now. I need to pull myself together faster. The Parentals are coming in half a month.
p.s. I made Kimchi fried rice today and it was off the HOOK! It brought a little smile on my face. Next time I will take pix and recipe, eventhough it was easier than crap. LOL!