Can't live with them, can't live without them.
Honestly, after dealing with people day after day, I've seriously given up hope on finding friends like the ones on Sex and the City. All I want is someone who won't judge me; someone who will be there when I need a shoulder to cry on; someone who will call me up and drag me out when I'm being anti-social; someone who, after years and thousands of miles apart, will still say "Hey Tao! I miss you!" and mean it. I don't know if I'm asking for too much.
I miss the good o' days when friends are just friends. I miss the times when making friends are purely for entertainment purposes without the worry of "networking" and job searches. I want to be free from the whole "What does he/she want from me?" mentality. I don't want to be friendly to people just to be hurt in the end. I don't want to be in that "Shoulda Coulda Woulda" stage again...
Last but definitely not least, I don't want my real friends to leave and move on with their lives without remembering they still have me. My dear friend Sandy is going to New York this Saturday to job search, and I'm dreading the moment of separation. I've know her since my Freshman ('06) year in college. Over the years we've had the good, the bad, and the ugly, but in the end we still remained close friends, TRUE friends. I don't want time and distance to break that bond. People always promise to stay in touch when they leave, yet very very few of them actually do. I know it's not easy to make real friends now, so I don't want to lose the few that I have.
I guess the point of this depressing entry is this: Please treasure your good friends. Be patient, be nice, don't take them for granted. There will come a day when you realize that you are not ready to let go. All I can do right now is wish her the best. She is a great person and deserves the best things in life plus more. I want to be able to see her years later and say: "Hey Sandy! I missed you!" and continue the conversation like we've never been apart.
To my beloved friend Sandy,
There will come a day when we could gather again and light up fireworks together. I sincerely wish that day would come sooner.
As always, I leave you with love and blessings.