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Thursday, November 11, 2010

Wow, totally didn't know I could "undelete" this....

Hi all,

So..... Yeah... Here we are again.

First of all, I'd like to apologize for completely disappearing on YT/Blogger. I've gotten A LOT of messages/emails asking if I was alright/wondering what happened. I'm sorry that I left you all confused/worried.

Don't worry, my YT/Blog weren't hacked. I personally deleted them.


I started YTubing as a hobby. There were only a handful of Asian "beauty gurus" and none of them were monolids. I wanted to share the techniques/knowledge of my countless trial and error so that other people don't have to waste money figuring stuff out for themselves. Blogging came later because I was lazy and didn't feel like editing the vids. LOL!

However, I don't know what happened. I guess as the YT beauty community grew bigger, a lot of subbers are getting a lot more demanding and rude. The negativity on YT is so overwhelming. I know I wasn't a "popular" YTuber, and that there are ppl w/ tens of thousands of subbers. I know they must have put up with A LOT worse than what I've put up with. I've seen vids/read comments that literally chilled me to the core.

I've never mentioned much about haters b/c I know that they derive joy from others' pain and annoyance. I thought that I was NOT going to let the stress of that get the best of me. However, when I come home after an exhausting long work day and check my YT/Blog, all the negativity just brings me down even more. I don't know why there are people out there who don't even know me could hate me so much. I guess anonymity gives ppl a sense of security so they dare to say stuff/do things that they otherwise wouldn't do.

Yes, the majority of the subbers are nice and polite, but it only takes a few to ruin the fun for everyone, and for that, I'm sorry.

I'm sorry I forgot the nice/supportive people out there; I'm sorry I was blinded by anger and discouragement; and most of all, I'm sorry that I let go of all the happy memories we've all created.

I forgot how happy I was when I receive messages from people telling me that they learned a lot from my videos/blogs; I forgot how happy I was when I hit 20,000 subbers on YT and 1,400 followers on blog; and I forgot how accomplished I felt when I shared my knowledge with you all.

So for those of you who emailed me asking me to restart, well, your wish is granted. I decided to start fresh here because I want to recreate those happy memories. I sincerely hope that you will join me for the ride. I promise that I will make it worth your while. ;P

BTW, this is my new YT account.




Michelle said...

i totally understand. thats why im not sure i want to even start my own account. i mean, i always think of good tips and what i would say if i had my own account, but the thought of spending so much time reading those hater comments just makes me not want to do it. but im proud that you are able to look beyond that. you're an inspiration!

Lourraine said...

I missed you Tao! I was going to show my sister a video you posted about natural looking falsies that day you disappeared and i was so devastated because you were one of my favorite. :) I understand that haters can really kill the mood even though im not a youtuber or blogger. Anyways welcome back! and take your time to get back into things. Don't let us let you think that you HAVE to do these stuff. You're in school and have a job, so just take you time and do it for your enjoyment. :) Once again, welcome back sweetie!

thecandiedmango said...

Thanks for coming back! I missed seeing your pretty looks.
If you feel like skipping on the whole Youtube scene you could always just stick to blogging. Whatever makes you happy.

tsuki said...

Welcome back! I'm sure that most of the people who subscribe to your blog/YT genuinely like reading/hearing whatever you want to share. Haters are usually sad, insecure people... try your best to stay positive!

fliizow said...

I'm so glad you are back! I am not Asian nor do I have a monolid but I really enjoy your hauls and reviews and even your tutorials!! I really wish mean people would just find something productive to do with their time instead of hating on wonderful talented people such as yourself. Keep doing what you're doing and don't let anyone bring you down. <3

Marge said...

i'm glad your back and i've subbed, you're very matter of fact and straight to the point.
from gamer blogs/forums to makeup there will always be haters, the favor they do us are the hits and comments.
chin up and keep that beautiful smile flashing ♥

thank you for coming back on YT☺

나니 said...

I noticed the negativity too. I completely agree with you tho, that it doesn't take many bad comments to rule out all the good ones.. Cause generally you'll start questioning yourself, even though you don't mean to. People hate on youtube because they can. They post shit and lame comments because they can - no one can find them and accuse them, drag them to court and make them pay.. Because being told that you're ugly, that you suck, that you're a lame-ass hoe with no other knowledge than makeup and all that.. it hurts. Even though it sucks to admit.

I'm sorry you had to delete your account! You're a great girl, with good intentions and great skill! Don't let them get to you! (even tho I know it's hard). We're all here for you <3 : D Don't forget that!

vi said...

i'm glad you're back. =) you're such a sweetheart, don't let anyone bring you down.

Anonymous said...

Welcome back! I'm so glad you decided to come back, we were all getting worried when you disappeared off the face of the virtual world :) Hang in there, just do your thing and ignore those silly people~ and thank you so much for coming back, you were sorely missed.

Syn said...

Your dedicated fans love love love you! I subscrubed because of your personality and know how. YOu are a very entertaining and knowlegable girl.

Anonymous said...

i'm really sorry that you have to put up with so much hatred. i think you are extremely talented and i always enjoy/look forward to reading your blog!

Anonymous said...

So glad you are back! People who criticize others via their computers are cowards. I'm excited to read your blog again because you have a unique point of view and you're awesome.

goldfish said...

i'm so happy you're back! i thought something bad happened to you. i kept you in my favorites and hoped you would return.

don't ever stop doing what you enjoy. some people have no filters and will do their best to bring others down.

you are absolutely wonderful and i love to follow your blog and your videos!

much love (=^___^=) xoxo

shelley said...

i miss you so much!!i kept checking my video subscribe list and get none video from you!!i am worry and i just search for your channel again *afraid if my subscribtion is error* and i just found that you made a new channel...

i miss how honest you are..and you always make me happy with your video..i understand that those 'hater' comment can make you down..if i was you,i will down so quickly..but i'm glad you back..

i am so happy finding you again..
*okay,it sounds like a 'romantic couple'..but truely..i'm glad you are back!!*

Anonymous said...

Tao, I am sorry that you felt that way! I wasnt one of your subscribers but i always went to see if you have updated. And when i couldn't find your old account i knew something was up!

Like what you said in your blog, there are not that many asian gurus on YT(am asian). and koodos to for you being one of them! (i know i can never have the courage and dedication that you have)

So life is too short to be unhappy over people who does not matter! I hope to see your blog/videos.

bunniehopp said...

you are my fav. guru because you are so honest and helpful and even when you are hurt by rude comments i am so glad that you actually HAVE A HEART. many gurus are actually really rude and have an attutitude problem or something when you ask "where did u buy ur fake eyelashes/what did u put in ur hair"

anyways--i just wanted to let you know what U ARE A WONDERFUL PERSON and i dont understand why anyone would NOT LIKE YOU. you are seriously the NICEST guru out there--dont worry i dont think you let the negativity get to you since you are starting again. I just recently started a new account so that i can subscribe to NEW YTubers instead of the "big popular" gurus-- they are all sponsored like crazy and starting to lie to their subscribers. A FRESH START IS A GREAT IDEA!<3

bonnie said...

I was really sad when I saw that your blog and yt was gone.You're my favorite! I am so glad you're back Tao!!