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Monday, April 23, 2012

I'm not dead; I'm just overworked.

Hey is this thing on? *tabs microphone*

I know, I know, I've been neglecting my blog for WAY too long. Work has been kicking my butt and, let's just be honest, presseing "record" on my camera is a lot easier than sitting here and type for an hour. Thank you to all of you who had stuck with me during this turbulent period.

We have our Panel at work right now. This is basically the final exams for us to see if we are ready to face the "real world" and get placed. The panel is made up of 5 parts and I've passed 3 last week, 2 more to go this week. However, there's nothing else for me study anymore. At this point it's pretty much either you know it or you don't. I have a presentation to give the panel judges tomorrow at 8am but I won't be able to recieve the case until tonight (so yes, I only have an evening to prepare it).

What's better to do than freaking out? Posting a blogpost during work hours of course. Since we are in the final stage of the program, our managers kind of turn a blind eye to what we do during our "study hours".

I gotta say though, never have I felt so close to a group of people, yet so helplessly alone. At the begining of the program, everyone had the same goal: Get through the program. Everyone worked together and leveraged eachother. We were all new to this huge city with no one but ourselves. Corporate America was scary, the hours were long, and the workload was intense, but we had eachother, and all was fine.

As we are coming to the end and facing the decisions of being placed, people changed. Their real color showed and the claws came out. Some people became moochers and our group dynamic changed.  People who used to not care about where they are going all of a sudden care A LOT now. Now only do we have to managed the pile of work, I leave the office exhausted everyday from dealing with people. I miss my family; I miss my cats; and I miss Nathan (Let's not even get started talking about how many conversations Nathan and I had over my placement options. That's for another day).

If this is what being an adult entails, then I don't like being an adult.

When I'm stressed out from being with people and need a quick getaway, which seems to happen on a weekly basis, I take my butt over to the Georgia Aquarium. When my mom came to visit me a couple months ago, I took her to the aquarium. 

It was in was FREEZING that day!

 It was breathtaking inside. I instantly feel calm the second I see the fish tanks.

 This is my favorite place to be in the aquarium. I often forget about all my problems and just take a a moment to appreciate the manmade nature.

We also saw penguins! Those mofos are so cute!!

Anyway, I have a training I have to go to. More updates to come. :)




Anonymous said...

Good luck dear! Missed your blog.

Kay said...

Welcome back! I've been through a very similar intense program that was equally competitive. Just focus on yourself and your work and success will follow. Best of luck with you!

Ashley said...

That's it, I am SO making my boyfriend take me to the Georgia Aquarium when I visit him. Looks like you had a mega great time with your more:)
Good luck on your last exams, Tao!

Vanity is an addiction said...

Good luck Tao!

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Anonymous said...

You can do it! :)

Anonymous said...

hey TAO, keep it up. Your job sounds super intense but if anyone can do it, its you.

delicate hummingbird. said...

i love love love aquariums, they are so fascinating and calming and this one seems amazing!
i wish you a lot of strength to go through the next time. i hate this dog-eat-dog mentality people develop when they go from their humanistic, educated student self to their selfish "adult"self, when they think that there would only be one to survive out of all.