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Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Murmur: All's Well...

Hi all, thanks for stopping by!

I just got home from work and am completely wiped out. I’m sure a lot of you have experienced that draining feeling. It’s not that I’m physically tired, but the mental exhaustion is beyond belief.


As I stare at the raindrops bouncing off of the windowpane, my mind began to wander.

I can’t speak for others, but just from my personal experience, it’s getting more difficult to just “get on with life” as I get older. I tend to dwell on things longer. It’s easier to lose sight of the big picture of your life in the hustle and bustle of the day, and complain when not EVERYTHING goes according to my perfect plan.

My close friends and family know that, despite appearing nonchalant and often ditzy, I’m a very intense and high-strung person. With my new role at work this year, it’s like drinking water from the fire hose every day. The learning curve is steep, the work is never-ending, and the corporate politics is ever so convoluted.

There are many nights where I have problem falling asleep worrying about the road ahead of me. Thoughts about what to do to climb that corporate ladder, save money for our second home, plan for the future of our baby (when the time is right), etc.. The list just goes on and on, and I drive myself crazy trying to plan for all the unpredictable little curveballs life throws our way.


One of my personal goals for 2015 is to smile more and tell myself that “all’s well” every day.  I noticed that my mind was wandering in that negative direction again today, and trust me, it’s not a place you want to be. I looked at myself in the mirror, smiled, and said “all’s well”. You would not believe how big of a difference a little sentence made.

Many things in life happen by chance. We tend to focus on the chances of something happening. I know I’m lucky to have a loving family, supportive friends, and a great career. Those are chances too! I need to focus on all the good that’s in my life and take a chill pill.

When in doubt, I’ll always turn to my little space on the Internet and blab into this abyss. You all should try it! Thank you all for making it this far and reading my rambling. If you are dealing with a restless and negative mind, please feel free to send me a message at iamgrape1119@hotmail.com. I’m always here for you too. J

XOXO,

Tao

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